“You Are Guilty of a Heinous Crime”

by Staff on September 4, 2011 · 2 comments

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On June 3rd, in the wee hours of the morning, a 4’11” 95-pound young woman effectively disappeared from the face of the Earth.

Hundreds, if not thousands, turned out to participate in searches. The news media took over a small section of downtown Bloomington. Lauren’s “friends” lawyered up. America’s Most Wanted profiled the case. A body was found in Fall Creek, but it wasn’t Lauren. A landfill was searched. Lauren remains missing.

Yesterday, three months to the day since Lauren Spierer disappeared, her mother released a letter (on her own birthday), addressed “To whom this may concern,” but clearly directed at the person or persons who may have been involved in her daughter’s disappearance.

The Letter

To whom this may concern:

Let me begin by introducing myself, although, I am sure you know who I am. I am Charlene Spierer, Lauren’s mother. Perhaps we have met. You are responsible for Lauren’s disappearance. You know where she is. You are guilty of a heinous crime. That, you know.

Now for what you don’t know….you don’t know what it’s like to call your wife knowing you will deliver news which will crush her. I cannot speak for my husband. I cannot imagine the resolve it took for him to make that call. I can only tell you what it was like to receive it.

Initially, you feel physically sick. Your heart races, your breathing all but stops. You feel as if you cannot stand. The heat rises and your head pounds. You are speechless. You are incredulous. After the initial shock, the adrenalin takes over. You call the police department, you call the airlines, and you wait…each passing moment agony. You desperately want someone to call you, to tell you Lauren is OK. You miss an incoming “blocked” call. Your heart sinks. You think you’ve missed the one call that can lead you to the discovery of your daughter. I frantically look up the names and numbers of every hospital in and surrounding Bloomington. I make the calls. No Lauren Spierer, no Jane Doe has been admitted to any emergency room. All of this in the first hours of having heard about Lauren’s disappearance.

I count the hours, minutes, seconds until my father can drive me to the airport to make the trip to Bloomington, Indiana. Imagine a grandfather, driving his daughter to the airport, on her way to discover what has happened to his granddaughter. Imagine that. There were few words exchanged. There are no words.

Robbie and I meet in the Indianapolis airport. He arrives from New York, I arrive from Alabama after visiting my family. The energy between us is tangible. It guides us through the steps and keeps us focused. Get the car, drive to Bloomington, get to the Bloomington Police Department. Hoping against hope the news of Lauren’s disappearance has changed and that she has been found. Of course, you know, that was not meant to be. After our meeting, we create the first poster for our missing daughter. We get the posters printed. I begin hanging posters; Robbie begins searching the area where Lauren was supposedly last seen.

Much has happened over the past three months. I won’t bore you with the details, if you’ve even gotten this far in reading this letter. I will say we have had the support and guidance of a multitude of people which has helped keep us going. For that generosity, we will be forever grateful.

Robbie and I recently returned to New York for Rebecca’s birthday. Maybe you knew that already (after all you know more about Lauren’s case than anyone. You know what happened. You know where she is.) While there we were surrounded by family. My young nephew asked me if we would celebrate Lauren’s birthday even if she wasn’t there. A question asked so innocently and coming from one who knows the joy of celebrating a birthday. I didn’t really know what to say. Now I do. Of course we will celebrate Lauren’s birthday.

Before we left Bloomington you could begin to feel the influx of activity, the students coming back to begin their fall semesters. You could feel the excitement and anticipation of reuniting with friends and beginning another year which will set you on the road to a life with a promising future. This time last year, Robbie, Rebecca, Lauren and I were all sharing those same experiences. Here’s something you probably don’t know. This year is considerably different. We packed and shipped all of Lauren’s things home. 19 boxes. Can you imagine that so much promise would fit into 19 boxes? I won’t go into the details of what it was like to pack Lauren’s things. I will just tell you it was excruciating. Every moment was excruciating.

Lauren and I share many things. Today I can add to that list. Today marks three months since Lauren’s disappearance. It is also my birthday. If you think for a minute, her father and I are going to disappear, think again. We are just as determined today as we were day one. You should know that Lauren is precious to us. Do you think this is a game? This is no game. We are in this for the long haul. Do you think we are going to walk away without finding out the answers? Do you think we are going to rest until we find Lauren? We will not. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM US. We will NEVER give up. What are you thinking? I would really like to know. I am waiting to hear from you.

Charlene Spierer

Dearest Lauren,

We are loving you.

Missing you.


Theories Abound

Many theories exist as to what exactly happened to Lauren that morning. When a pickup truck was spotted on surveillance video obtained from the area where Lauren disappeared, many were certain that this was the key to solving the case. It was later determined, however, that the truck wasn’t connected to the case.

Living in Bloomington, I’ve heard many of the theories. The most prevalent one centers around drug use. According to reports, Lauren and many of the young men who were her “friends” were involved with drugs.

An employee of Kilroy’s came forward to tell that Lauren, while in the establishment (illegally) the night she disappeared, crying, drunk and barely able to walk, confessed to her that she had ingested both cocaine (an “upper”) and Xanax (a “downer”) that night.

I asked someone who is familiar with the drugs about the mixing of the two. I was told that most drug users probably wouldn’t mix them as the Xanax might tend to “cancel out” the effects of the cocaine. A bit of research shows that the two can be a deadly combination — and that’s without throwing alcohol into the mix.

Long QT

It’s fairly well known that Lauren has a heart condition known as Long QT and took medication to keep her heart from going into arrhythmia. Those with Long QT have to be careful about what medications they take, including certain appetite suppressants, decongestants and common antibiotics, as they can trigger dangerous heart rhythms.

And that’s under normal circumstances, without cocaine or alcohol being involved.

Long QT, on its own, can cause fainting, seizures, and even potentially sudden death. When you add in alcohol and cocaine use, however, death can come quickly and without warning.

Overdose and Panic?

While the police said early on that they suspect foul play, I have a hard time believing that any of Lauren’s friends would intentionally murder her. In addition, the chances that one would be randomly kidnapped off the street in the middle of downtown Bloomington (even at 2 or 3 a.m.) are, statistically, fairly low.

Obviously something happened, of course, but what?

My own theory (and one shared by a number of others in Bloomington) is that Lauren died due to the effects of the drugs in combination with Long QT. Her friends, as anyone likely would, panicked. If drugs were present, they would have been afraid of calling the police and getting in trouble.

Her body was likely “disposed of”.

Lawyer Up

Lauren SpiererLauren’s “friends” who are close to the case are mostly other students from out-of-state that come from well-to-do families — the kind who have high-priced attorneys in their “circles”. My guess is that, once the police were involved and their names brought up, these young men called their parents and their parents got in touch with their attorneys friends.

Not being from Indiana or admitted to the Indiana bar, however, their attorney friends wouldn’t have been able to represent the boys here. Instead, they’d have to retain Indiana attorneys, such as James Voyles, Jr.

Voyles, who has represented Jamaal Tinsley, Dominic Rhodes, Mike Tyson, Larry Bird, and Bob Knight, is just the kind of high-priced criminal defense attorney you’d want on your side if, you know, you were guilty of something. Just days after Lauren Spierer went missing, Voyles confirmed that he was representing Jay Rosenbaum.

Police believe that he may have been the last person to see Lauren alive.

Let me say that I don’t believe that any of the young men involved in the case intentionally murdered Lauren. I do believe, however, that at least one of them may have been involved in the drug use that potentially contributed to her death, however.

I don’t think that they are keeping quiet because they necessarily killed her. I believe that they are keeping quiet because they don’t want to get in trouble for the drugs or anything else they may have been involved in and their families, of course, want them to keep quiet too.

After all, having it publicly known that their kids were involved with drugs such as cocaine and the death of a beautiful young lady would really tarnish the image and reputation of these fine, upstanding rich folks, wouldn’t it? They just can’t let that happen and, as we all know, with enough money and the right friends, one’s “problems” can be taken care of.


While everyone hopes that Lauren is found alive and well, the sad truth is that she is, in all likelihood, dead.

Unfortunately, it’s impossible to know when that day might come. In the disappearance of Jill Behrman, for example, it wasn’t until nearly three years later that her remains were found. In that case, John R. Myers II was later convicted for her murder although many, including myself, aren’t convinced of his guilt, but that’s a story for another day.

Since it doesn’t seem likely that any of the young men connected to the Spierer case will come forward to police and admit their involvement, I am hopeful that, perhaps while partying on cocaine and alcohol, one of them will confess their involvement and tell what happened to Lauren — and I hope it happens in the presence of several witnesses.

More than anything, however, we all just hope that Lauren is found, and soon.

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